Dear God,
I love you dearly and I’ve never stopped believing in you. You’re the only one that knows my pain. And if one day, I can’t bear this world any longer please don’t condemn me for it. Although I knew all along it was wrong, please understand that I just want go be with you and away from all my suffering.
I don’t know what this feeling is
But it’s both nice and not so nice.
I have this ache in my soul
This deep sadness,
So deep in the depth that no one can reach,
But I have this hope,
This need to keep on fighting.
I’m curious.
Life is such a process,
We never know how it will turn out or how long it’s going to take.
So I drown in my thoughts tonight once again,
I close my eye’s and wait for a happier place than this.
“Hate the sin but never the sinner.”
I don’t want this.
I wish it were my time.
But I’ll patiently wait,
Just like everyone else.
I finally figured out what that feeling is… It’s hallow.
I’m so sick,
I’m so tired.
I just have these urges,
I just have this pain inside,
It just hurts so bad,
I just want to tie that rope,
Tightly around neck,
Let myself drop,
I’m gone forever.
I can’t wait to feel alive again.
“Some day’s I don’t know if I’m wrong or right.”
I just want to feel my pain; Not the pain of the world anymore.
